After in december and january I had a really bad not-knowing-what-I-want-and-how-I-happened-to-live-the-life-I-do-depression going I’m now happy to annouce: I’m a woman, a mother, a partner. Also I’m a job-searcher, sun-lover and time-off-enjoyer. (I’m also very excited to find out what else I am or will be.) Here comes some proof:
I recently bought my very first red shirt/dress. I never thought I’d like to dress myself in colour. Which I do now. So, just in case somebody wants to give me a (colourful) shirt as a gift, I’d have some ideas:
Actually I’d take anything by Los Angeles designer Heidi Merrick.
Having Levi’s birthday was (shamefully-übermotherly) like having my own birthday. With sleepless days before and wondering what to give him and what he would get. As it was his first birthday to really celebrate (we didn’t celebrate his first one for baby-unconscious-reasons) I wanted it for him to be a lovely day. A special day. And for me, too. We had small friends over in the afternoon and big friends in the evening. It was a lovely day. And he got very lovely presents. I made him a blanket for little cars which he can play with at home and take with him when we travel. He likes it.
The details are our house and our bike-trailer. (I found the idea on the internet but the link doesn’t work anymore – Thank you, inspirer!)
Now he’s two years old and going to daycare soon. And I’m going to have to find out what happens with my „professional life“. Scary.
I’m in cushion mood these days. Making news covers for long abused coverless sofa cushions and replacing ugly old ones. But instead of showing the ones I made (because of creepy iPhone pics) I rather post these:
This is a nice patterned one by the Swedish company Klippan.
And those Livingstones are absolutely comfortable and great (and really looking like stones!) By french company smarin.
Dot cushion by Hay Denmark (of course…).
Oh Danes, you design lovely things.
And: As it’s Levi’s second brithday very soon, I’m dreaming of this bObles sitting-playing-elefant to give him:
I believe I should go more colourful in the nearer future. It might brighten up my mood. If not in clothes I could start with this lovely mug.
(via roadtrip in finland)
Autumn has always meant changes for me. As a kid and teenager I liked shopping through all kinds of catalogues with my mother in order to order new clothes for autumn that I loved wearing on the first day of school. (I grew up in the veryvery countryside so catalogue shopping was the thing to do unless you wanted to drive for hours to get to a real shop. Moreover we lived in east Germany. So after the Fall of the Wall my mother loved finally being allowed to just order whatever she saw…)
After I finished school I moved out of my parent’s house – in autumn. I changed university and therefore cities several times – always in autumn.
This year’s autumn changes aren’t determined so much by the weather (as we didn’t have a real hot summer in Berlin) but by going another step towards separation from my boy: he will be going to kindergarten. And I will be going to work.
I’m really looking forward to having more time to being with myself again. But at the same time I’m having lots of respect (not to say I’m a bit anxious) about letting him go. I’m going to miss our 30 minutes in bed after waking up when he talks and shows all our bodyparts and is rolling all over the bed and me. I’m going to miss his funny moves while learning to eat lunch with a spoon himself. I’m going to miss bringing him to bed after lunch and staying in bed as well.
But I will love seeing how he makes friends and will be able to play stuff that I’m not patient enough to show him or don’t have the experience than they do in kindergarten. Also I’m going to love doing something to earn my own money and not to depend so much on the man anymore. I’m going to love having spare time for reading the newspapers. I’m going to love being more confident because of feedback that doesn’t have anything to do with childcare or housecare. (However also I’m anxious about that future feedback already because I believe I can just do childcare and housecare…)
Also, as the comsumist-kid that I formerly was – I’m still like that. I still don’t like shopping in real shops. But I don’t do it with catalogues neither. Holymoly internet of course is a never ending source of desires. My desires. Here come the ones that I desire mostly nowadays:
Frye boots. I’d love to have a pair of these. Unfortunately they aren’t sold in Germany. I suppose I’d have to try them on because my (fucking sensitive) feet usually aren’t made for heels (even if they are just 4 cm). I could order a pair online and send it back on my own expenses. In the end I will probably to that.
These chino pants from Knowledge Cotton Apparel! I already have them in navy for a year now and wear them pretty much everyday. This colour is lovely and would be a bit crazy in my otherwise navy/grey/black wardrobe. The best thing about them? These danes make all their apparels from 100% certified organic cotton.
Other things I’d like to do this autumn is cooking seasonal vegetables more. Like all kinds of root vegetables, preferably stewed in salt in the oven. I’m going to knit jackets. Little ones, though, because I’m too impatient for big ones. I might be going swimming more regularly – one should have bigger goals. Most of all I’m going to enjoy the afternoons: Playing with Levi after kindergarten and hoping he will still like to talk bodyparts and kiss my belly.